Hope

Her wings are folded six feet under.

I'm empty now. God, give me new hope. Give me Your hope.

My delight is in You.


Sometimes I think you just have to get over things. Sometimes it just hurts too much to acknowledge it anymore. Eyes get tired of crying. And so you have a blank slate, you have new wings to find.

Sometimes you just have to wait and see what will happen.

In the meantime, I'm just going to focus on who I am, who I'm growing and being shaped into. And that should pass the time until something happens. It's more important than what happens, anyways.

I want to be someone who seizes the day. I want to be someone with open eyes. Who sees every moment, every opportunity as just that - opportunity. I just don't want it to be over and then regret not having done more. Having smiled more, having used my time and money for something more than just myself.

My theme for this year: "Speaking the Truth in Love." (Eph 4:15)

I want to be someone who makes the most of what I have. And who lives and acts and speaks honestly. I don't want to be a hypocrite, or superficial. But at the same time, I don't want to only take things at face value. I want to go after what could be, despite what things are. And I want to be used to that end.

Tomorrow's a new day.

Only seven weeks til summer.